Life is unfair to the poor

Today wasn’t so different from the rest of my life. Even from the day I was brought into this unfair world I was talked about, hurt, and sad. My happiest moments were filled with this pain. Filled so full that I had no time to smile. Others some how found time to mock my sadness saying in their uncared about opinion it is not necessary sadness (if you feel this way it is real… and if you believe it and there is a good reason behind it is necessary). No let me tell you what unnecessary sadness is. Unnecessary sadness is when you don’t get the new JORDANS that mommy promised you so you lock your ignorant self in the room till she gives them to you. That’s freaking unnecessary. I am sad because I feel that no one loves me, and so far I have been right. All my ex-boyfriends lie to me. My cosines all pretend to like me. But I know deep in my deep abyss of sadness called my heart that they lie. Because I want to simply do more with my life then sit on the porch of my ghetto stroke home and smoke crack, or gamble, or even just do nothing at all. My family hates that I want to follow my dreams and become more then what others see in me. I want to sing. I want to have my own magazine. I want be happy for once. Is that too much to ask for? Is that too much to shot for? Is it too high to aim? I am not stupid, and I am not oblivious. I am just sad. And as I wait for that man to ride up on a white beautiful horse to save me, I die alittle more inside to know I have to wait. What the hell does Cinderella have that I don’t. She is blessed with a god mother, a handsome rich prince husband and good friends. And yet she still is lucky to have a God mother even after all that. Why most I suffer, and she remained blessed. I think I have earned love…or even just a happy ending. I know prince charming is out there somewhere looking for me. Looking for that one girl who isn’t ignorant, mean, or super selfish. For that one girl that’ll think about him, when he thinks about her. For that one girl that wont kiss his ass when she wants something. For that one girl who he loves and will always think of her feelings before his own. He is looking for her. And untill my grave is burned and gone I will make sure he finds her. Because that young lady deserves to have a life to be admired by all who don’t try and shot for it. But then again I did say life isn’t fair at all….. and I am sure my sadness has to take me much more further before it’ll bring me happiness. Because in the end sadness which is the dark, will always come before the happiness which is light.